Broken

I was seventeen years old the first time I died.
I remember there was white everywhere.
There was war, and I felt alive
But, really,
I was dead.

Sometimes I think we live through things...
...only to be able to say that it happened.
That it wasn't to someone else,
it was to me.

Sometimes we live to beat the odds.

I'm not crazy...
...even though they thought I was.

I live in the same world as everyone else.
I just saw more of it,
as I'm sure you have.

They'll find my body tomorrow.
You can check it out if you don't believe me.

I've seen life after my death...

...and I'm telling you this because it's the only way...
...to help you and your family have a better life of your own.

Jean...
...you're gonna pass out one day smoking a cigarette...
...and burn to death.

Your daughter grows up living the same sad life you're living right now.
And she misses you so much.

Sometimes life can only really begin with the knowledge of death.
That it can all end,even when you least want it to.
The important thing in life is to believe...
...that while you're alive,
it's never too late.

I promise you, Jean ,
no matter how bad things look...
...they look better awake than they do asleep.

When you die, there's only one thing you want to happen.

You wanna come back.

2 comments:

An absurd said...

i dont want to say much. i dont know what to feel. i'd like to pose a question though. what is it about life that makes it so? Is life, life, if my breath suffocates me?

natascha said...

honestly, im not sure what to feel either.its an aspect of life that i was exposed to. how people look at it in a completely different way than us fortunate ones. fortunate coz maybe we havent seen what they have seen. experiences and incidents change perspective i guess. maybe thats what makes life so.i dunno.it becomes worthless. you dont mean much in anyones life. you dont have a purpose for being where u are..and you wonder why. things leave no room for conflict between existence and meaning.they dont think like some of us. dont get it.