Thursday

Tired and Lost.
"you are the new C-4, Natascha..
Cool
Calm
Composed
and Clueless."
He is tall, but thats all.
He is fit , but thats it.
haha!
Im not Thinking.*Ting!* The Cushion is Comfortable. Surprise Surprise! One Cappuchino please. *ka-Ching!*, Thank you! Dhin chaak Dhin Chaak.. bang!
*blank*
Thursday Evening. No company. But do i really need any?
Exams. Bah, those Bitches.
Hard Work?
No!
But i want to!
No, you cant!
Why not?!
Ask yourself!
Madness, Insanity. Realization. I just Realized Something.
What?
Inspiration? Is that you? oh okay. Call me whenever. whenever you are Free. whenever you Feel like Talking maybe.
May Bee
Wokay?
Dont Desire to be. Just Be! The 8-fold path. To Happiness?
Ahaan?
Im not too sure. If I want something. I would want it for a Reason. A Valid reason. A Good valid reason.
He doesnt smile much He said.
'Ah! That way. I get it now'. "Queen".
Hmmm.
Interesting that. Wierd is good.
Lonely and Tired..
"Man, Im just Tired and Bored with Myself
Hey there baby..
I could use just a little...."
Help! The sky is falling! Chicken little is here to save the day! *rap rap* *whoooosh!*
Wait, what was I going to think? aww Damnit!
Great, now my head hurts. School tomorow. Physics..and Maths! Oshins ladies beauty parlour. Beauty...
*doesnt smile much...
Funny thing that. "beauty parlour".. Beauty has been given an image. Against its will.
anything but that, Is not Beautiful. Oh, well. Dont you want to look inside? You'll be Surprised. Im so Sure.
I like Trees. Every place has its own Tree-Shape. Slim and Composed near the Racecourse. Tangled up somewhere Else.. Spread out..Near school. Like a bunch of Daisies tied loosely. School..
...upon the stairs i saw a man, who wasnt there...
I cant fuckin Feel anything!
..he wasnt there the other day..
whats worse..I know Why.
..i wished to God he'd go away..
I think I should stop here. This isnt going anywhere. But again..Should it?
I like my Coffee
'He doesnt smile much.
He Said.'

...

When something Sinks
and something Dies..
it takes everything else along with it.
Everything.
Things you never realized you had
Things you never thought would matter..
Things you never knew existed.

The Feeling stays.
The sinking-dying feeling
It unpacks and takes a nap.
on the worn-out red couch in the hall.
It merges with the background.
Moves. Watches. Observes. Takes its Notes
and spreads itself in everything around it.
Everything.
In Broken windows and painted walls,
Old Cupboards and Clothes.
in unwashed coffee mugs.
and Coffee.